Depression

How do you deal with it? I know I am very prone to depression and that it can hit me hard. For example, I am depressed right now due to reasons beyond my control and it makes me feel so totally helpless and alone that I just don't know what to do. I also get Seasonal Affective Disorder, which makes it hard for me to cope during Winter. Sometimes I just don't function, I try hard, but its too much effort to do anything and I just sit in bed all day and watch TV and not eat. Today, I haven't gone to college, I can't stop crying on and off. I have to go to work later, as I need the money so I hope I can cope then. I just don't know what to do right now, when you can't even fix the reason you are depressed, then it just kills you inside. I just don't know how to cope, so I was wondering, do other people get this? How do you cope? I used to self harm, but these days I just stop eating and functioning. The only thing that makes it go away for a bit is seeing my friends, and I am seeing one of my old besties tomorrow, so I hope she can cheer me up, she knows why I am upset and she understands. I have work first thing tomorrow as well. I guess I have to do what I do when I have to see other people, and put on the fake smiling face and cope until I can get home and to my room and break down again.

I feel so bad, why does this stuff affect me so badly, is there something wrong with me? Am I just a silly over emotional girl? Do I need to grow up? I don't know, can anyone help or is it just me who feels like this?

Kitty